Dove Cameron published many teary-eyed images of herself on Instagram, explaining that she has been “terrified” by her identity and is working to unlearn self-hatred.
“I’ve been grappling recently with the concept of self, my inner relationship to who I know myself to be and my exterior perceivable self,” she said in a lengthy Instagram post on Wednesday.
“Recently, I’ve been hiding mirrors. I’ve been feeling unattractive in clothes that used to make me feel lovely. I’ve been crying a lot recently, sometimes terrified of my own identity and image, and other times in complete flow with something new, peripheral, and joyful to me.”
The actress, 26, said she isn’t sure whether she has figured out who she is yet, although she has been able to locate herself on occasion.
“The self finds ways to come itself anyhow,” she said, “teasing us with who we might be if we didn’t feel we had to be everything but the self.”
The “Liv and Maddie” alum also talked about how “sexuality and performative gender standards” are “throwing [her] for a loop,” as well as how social media, branding, and constantly sharing her life with outsiders has a negative impact on her mental health.
“The self finds ways to show up anyhow,” she said, “trickling in enough to hint at who we might be if we didn’t feel we had to be everything except the self.”
The “Liv and Maddie” star also talked on how “sexuality and performative gender standards” are “throwing [her] for a loop,” and how social media, branding, and constantly sharing her life with strangers is affecting her mental health.
“We all deserve to live lives free of societally imposed identities, to unlearn self-abuse and self-hatred,” she wrote. “I am currently on that path. and I’m sharing so that we may all feel more at ease in a potentially confused conversation and traverse something difficult to put into words together. Humans come first. “The rest is just that.”
“Emotion is COOL,” she concluded. Dysphoria is acceptable. Being a human is a CHALLENGE. Everyone is holding hands. “Keep in mind.”